..a moment with my self ..

It's funny how some times when you set by yourself & you have alot to say , you just feel like you want to keep talking & talking but you just can't find the right words to start with , it feels like there are so much to say & it all wants to go out at Once :) .

" Lonely Kid "

when i go back to my childish period , i don't remember so much i don't know why? .. i hear people say all the time " oh i wish i can get back to the time when i was a kid" & people usually talk about adventures they had when they were kids .. fun times , Happy moments , etc
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But i always remember it as a Lonely period , Silent , Wondering .. or more of Vain & shallow . Maybe it is due to the fact i was the only kid for couple of years And when i got a brother he was handicapped so there wasn't so much fun .

If there was some thing else i remember is the Boring school days .. i used to go to school & come back home setting in front the window looking at the sky & birds and wishing i could fly , for a while it seems a nice moment, silent One , but that is till my dad comes over & sees me setting doing nothing .. Wondering what did he use to do ? ..well he grabs any thing near him to hit me or some times by his bare hands till i cry .. cry .. cry .. cry & sleep because i cried so much.

There is nothing to remember back there , of course it doesn't mean there was a good times but bad Once over taken the good Once.

" it just exhausted for me to bring all that memory :) "


.. To continued ..