i don't know why ?..

For many many years Love was what is every body looking for . They wrote songs about it , they've made movies about it and a special day too . But i don't know why it always seems perfect in movies but in Real life it's nothing .
For 8 years i've loved truly One girl only, through sickness & health .. Summer & winter .. Days & nights , she was " The One " for me . We were truly like no other , we would talk about every thing & any thing , share every thing we have , It was just perfect .
Though she says what i do is enough i never thought so i always tried to be better , i always tried to impress her , taking my self to a new level each time. Loving her has made me some how better me & who i'm right now .
But as i said it always seems so perfect in movies & always sounds so nice in love songs . I don't know why ? ..

After 8 years over One small word i said telling her " Baby how could you watch T.V all day long" so she decided that was it . The word that would end it all up !! . Now i'm not perfect infact no One is , but i don't think that was a mistake that leads to Breaking up with some body it is not even enough reason to be mad or sad about who said it . As hard as that breakin' up hurted me it was nothing comparing to what i've found later .

" Yes i love you .... , as a best friend "

So then one day i was searching around the internet for new sites & stuff i - some how - found her blog on the internet & when i read what she wrote i found out that i was just " best friend " & she was in love with other guy who has just got married ! . That was the K.O for me i broked down & my heart has been broken for real this time .

" who needs to see the ugly side of life in a movie , you pay to see the lovely side of it "

Then , just then i found out that in movies its perfect because its not real & whats not real is always perfect . I'm so tired from feelings , love & from this full of fakes world .

In the end ,
despite all that i still love her but Pride is over love . And i realized that there is no true love such as a mothers love to her kid & i love the fact that no matter how old i get i still a baby to my mum & i can always come to her running & hug when ever the world gets harsh on me .


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This is the first time to me to express what i want in English & its my first time to write in this site so i know my writing wasn't that good so if you have any comments or what so ever about it tell me so i can improve my writing .

With all best wishes,
M.D